Kanan nodded, shifting his weight around so that he could look her in the eye.
"I was going to be a Knight, you know," he said, though his words were coming out slowly. Carefully. "Not right away, of course. Some time after the war, my Master would have finished my training, and then I would have spent the rest of my days in service to the Force... to the galaxy."
He pursed his lips a little.
"Service doesn't mean throwing myself in front of every dangerous situation looking to die for it. I accepted it as a possibility back during the Clone Wars, but I've fought damn hard to keep alive. I don't intend to stop doing exactly that, either."
He gave her a brief grin, but it was lacking the usual edge, the brittle corners that it usually had when he got to talking about these things.
"I happen to be pretty good at it."
He was alive, after all. Ten thousand other Jedi were not.
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"I was going to be a Knight, you know," he said, though his words were coming out slowly. Carefully. "Not right away, of course. Some time after the war, my Master would have finished my training, and then I would have spent the rest of my days in service to the Force... to the galaxy."
He pursed his lips a little.
"Service doesn't mean throwing myself in front of every dangerous situation looking to die for it. I accepted it as a possibility back during the Clone Wars, but I've fought damn hard to keep alive. I don't intend to stop doing exactly that, either."
He gave her a brief grin, but it was lacking the usual edge, the brittle corners that it usually had when he got to talking about these things.
"I happen to be pretty good at it."
He was alive, after all. Ten thousand other Jedi were not.